You're better than the best.

Dearest Ah Gong

2012-01-16T12:00:00.002+08:00

亲爱的阿公，

你过的好不好？有没有和爸爸见到面？
虽然我们语言不通，但是我忽然之间好想你和老爸。

never again

2011-12-23T00:16:00.002+08:00

you will never know what im actually thinking.

1 year 7 months.

how many days do we actually spent it alone together?

sometimes i feel so reluctant,
i feel like giving up
because this issue doesnt seemed to have a solution for it.

you are not the someone who understands me well from the start,
you aint my soul mates,
we arent best friends
because we couldnt share anything among each other,
we doesnt look even like couples anymore,

i think im just used to you.

my superman dad.

2011-09-15T01:33:00.005+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!

how are you?

how have you been?

whenever im alone at home in the night, especially when mummy went to malaysia,

i think of you.

reminsince the past that you will come back to accompany me in the night because you know im

timid in the dark.

i miss you fetching me back from work,

i miss fighting with you.

we are fine, mummy is still very sensitive towars money,

da jie got herself a rich boyfriend,

er jie is a boss now, managing her carpantry works,

whereas i have a boyfriend who dotes me very much,

CHUA family are doing fine.

hope you are enjoying yourself in another world.

i love and misses you a lot a lot alot alot alot alot.

though you are gone for 3 years plus, you are always living in my heart.

life is still my life

2011-09-02T00:32:00.004+08:00

ALOHA!

its been a long time that i updated my life at here.

i doubt i have followers or peoples reading/caring my life though.

Life have been great except my UT 3.

confirm guranteed chop its a fail.

on the other note, i found my part time job at sushi tei.

all thanks to EMOSILLYBOY KEN LEW.

work have been great,

just that my feet are aching from all the standing(its been years that i need to stand for my jobs)

some people sucks there, but im gradually forcing myself to change my mindset about them.

other than that, work is just basically a work-more-money-more job.

21st birthday are coming soon which really give me a hint that im really 21 this year.

SI BEI OLD.

still thinking to have it a celebration on chalet or function room or k box.

its just a matter of money LAH.

if im rich like Paris Hilton, im gonna make it a memorable 3 days 3 night in my HILTON hotel.

BF's hometown on monday!

for freaking 7 days!

please gonna be good!

finally a long get-a-way after the trip with whole family when i was 17 years old.

this is how he spiced my day

2011-08-07T21:49:00.003+08:00

ME: " How much do you love me?"
BF: " 20 cents"
ME: "@#$%%@"

this is how he added spices into my life.

UT 3 is coming,
holiday is coming.

i do really need to find a job real soon but i haven really been working hard on it though.

Sometimes, we do have sweet moment.

2011-07-11T00:33:00.001+08:00

Bf: you got to tell me when you in need of anything , okay?
Me: I needs you. *pointed to his chest*
Bf: smile and said "I'm here, always"

Awwww so sweetttttt.
<3 bblen.

-blogging through my apple!

illness struck me.

2011-07-05T21:12:00.003+08:00

down with 38.3 oC fever, throat infection and massive headache.
i have 2 days MC but i have UT test tomorrow.

Please, let me be better.

Being sick is not a good thing,
tasteless senses and head felt heavy.
$38 medicine. Darn the expensive medicine.

Please, be gone tomorrow,

let bygones be bygones

2011-06-28T00:27:00.002+08:00

i have been skipping school lately.
last week attendance was 2/5

i got A for my science but 2 E for cognitive and math.
PS. i failed math since secondary.

many things happened for a reason
i hoped its really over soon and you will hold on no matter what
because i believed, we will stay together as long as we both tried.

sometimes, i wondered,am i doing the right thing?
for encouraging you to sign on ?

i have so many wishlists.
i hoped money dropped from the sky.
i truely have to find a job real soon.
BROKE this month.

记的

2011-06-23T13:59:00.002+08:00

不要认为后面还有更好的，因为现在拥有的就是最好的；不要因为距离太远而放弃，爱情是可以和你一起坐火车的。一生只谈一次恋爱是最好的，经历的太多了，会麻木；分离多了，会习惯；换恋人多了，会比较；到最后，你不会再相信爱情。------ 其实对于爱情，越单纯越幸福。

Shall we?

2011-06-21T02:00:00.001+08:00

Those words are just keep rewinding in my head.

Is this isn't love, what is it?

I should really convinced myself that this is going to end.

How I wish I'm inferior to heartbreak and sorrow.

-blogging through my apple!

Shattered.

2011-06-20T01:07:00.000+08:00

Your words are like piercing knife, repeatly stabbing into my heart.

You don't know how much your words has hurt me.

It came too fast, I'm unable to digest.

All I know that, tough love will overcome any obstacles.

Loving someone is accepting who they are.

I don't hate you.
I hate myself for falling too deep.

Am I being selfish?

Please do not comment.
I'm tired, both physically and mentally.

-blogging through my apple!

expensive metal

2011-06-15T16:31:00.002+08:00

This whole set of metal is costing me 3.5k

Please make sure it worth that money

At the same time, it hurting me like mad.

I cant chew and talk much.

How long can I tolerate all this.

2011-06-15T02:22:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I feels that you love yourself more than you love me.

I wasnt being awared by you

What you cares, your life,some times does not included me.

I'm not getting sick of you,

I'm just sick of not being corncerned by you.

-blogging through my apple!

Losing weight

2011-06-10T02:32:00.001+08:00

I think I'm gaining weight because I have been eating non stop lately.

When can I be like those slim slim kind of girls?

-blogging through my apple!

i always do,

2011-06-01T15:17:00.002+08:00

i always do,

365 days

2011-05-29T01:40:00.001+08:00

Happy one year anniversary!

You're sleeping beside me so soundly

But...

-blogging through my apple!

Universal studio

2011-05-27T23:29:00.003+08:00

i lost my iphone 4!
i used it barely for 5 months!

i placed my wallet and handphone in my backpack and went to shop around at cotton on,
i found my zip was unlocked when i went to settled my bills!

i search high and low for it,
i scratched my laptop, pull out everything from my bag.
IT WAS GONE):

ALL MY DATAS, ALL MY CONTACTS, ALL MY STUFFS.

to the person who stole it:
i wish you petrified in hell and you can pickpocket when you walk on the street next day.
your loss will be 100x more than mine! _l_

what can caused me to heartbreak more than losing my iphone 4?

it was when yu gave me a lecture and insisted that i did the wrong thing by not hugging my bag securely.
It wasnt my intention either to lose my iphone 4.
I was sadder than anyone else because i paid it using my hard earn money.

i hate you for not hearing me to explain and you insisted that defiant to you.
you make me think that im a utterly failure,

i have no mood in anything now.

i doesnt want to go to USS anymore.
thanks for spoiling all this shit.

TYVM

i love my life now.

2011-05-26T21:17:00.003+08:00

I got a D+ for organisational behaviours because i missed the 1st and 2nd meeting.

First D.

im so sad.

on the other hand, volleyball was fun!

but i have little dots of blue blacks on my arms.i love my school mates

Sian

2011-05-21T08:28:00.001+08:00

Every week the same routine,

What can I demanded for?
It's my choice.

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Beautiful smile

2011-05-12T07:24:00.001+08:00

Bye crooked teeth!
Thanks for being "crooked" for 20 years 6 months 9 days of my life<3

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I shouldnt ask for more,

2011-05-03T22:25:00.001+08:00

Happy belated 11 months!

Double <3

Peanut is injured by a unprofessional groomer.

She is staying over at my place till Friday! She is being a good girl so far!

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2011-04-18T18:30:00.001+08:00

School started today!!!
It was better than expected, presentation wasn't that bad after all.
Eventually I started to like presentation!
But I missed not schooling day already);
Contracdicted.

I'm so looking forward to cca open house,
Netball netball here I come!

I bought a laptop haversack which costs me 69$
Broke, but it's in green!
Heheheh thought of getting the red but it was out of stock.

My body ache from yesterday's badminton,
I wanna keep fit!

Lastly happy birthday to mummy!

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300 days

2011-03-31T23:48:00.001+08:00

I'm two days late.
BUT
Happy 10 months bf!<3
I have so much to say but every words gonna be spelled as "I love you"

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life isnt beatiful afterall

2011-03-27T23:03:00.002+08:00

School starting in 3 weeks time,
im anticipated to school,
because i wanna know how my new friends look like,
how fun they will be.
anticipating to cca,
have a healthy lifestyle, most importantly to slim down
and back to my part time life.

i wished i could tahan it for 3 years,

Batam again with Alicia in 2 weeks time!
SPA SPA SPA.

recently, theres been number of unhappy incidents,
let bygones be bygones,

sometimes, i realised i have grown up a lil,
grown up to be mpre independent,
but when things happened, im still back to normal,
the one who try to avoid rather than facing it.

but luckily, i still have my BFF and family(:

though mum is stingy with money,
but she still help me when im in trouble(sometimes)

Bf might not be able to fulfil his dream,
tomorrow is the verdict,
i prayed that the outcome will be a fruitful one.

but still, life sucks.

I'm afraid

2011-03-21T17:39:00.001+08:00

Picture speaks a thousand words,

I'm afraid,
I have that absurd feeling,
A feeling that I don't want it to be real,

God, please don't make it happen.

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I still do,

2011-03-20T23:34:00.001+08:00

I thought you will never hurt me.
But I'm wrong.

Both of us are selfish isn't it?

Overall, I'm still crazily madly in love with you (:

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WORK OR STUDY?

2011-03-14T22:33:00.002+08:00

ALOHA!

im having great time in march though it just the second week.

i went BATAM with bf in the first week!
im going there again with BFF.Loh in April!
Things over there are super cheap.
Cigarette for less than 2 bucks per pack.
Seafood feasts consisted with Crab, Prawns, Sotong, Vegetables costs us $22 for BOTH person.
Most importantly, the massage!
i skipped spa because menses haunts me.

another new was, im being selected in RP!
finally i get to study in poly.
but thinking of working part time with that little of money,
i feel like giving up.
'
i still have many things undone yet.
i have to give up braces,
i have to survived on part time pay which is insufficient for me.
my mother isnt supporting me,
i have to find ways to pay school fees and my daily expenses.

what make me being contradicted was that i have another job opportunity to work as a logistic coordinator at Clarins.
finally, im able to gained experience in logistic line with SIN Ye Woon, my primary and secondary school mate.

So should i work full time and study private or work part time and study full time?

Deal or no deal

2011-03-03T17:02:00.001+08:00

Dear body, you can't be doing this to me.
I'm going on a trip with bf.
I'm going to pamper you with spa and good foods.
Please delay your monthly cycle for just this time.
Deal?
Mummy love you xoxo

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Endurance

2011-02-20T04:42:00.001+08:00

Please know your limits,

My limits is up.

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am i your lasr priority?

2011-02-18T00:05:00.003+08:00

what the most difficult obstacles in r/s?

it wasnt about trust,
it wasnt about giving in,

its when you felt that your bf placed you as his last priority in his life.

Feeling so great,

2011-02-14T00:32:00.000+08:00

I'm trying to get over what happened on Saturday.
Those words you had said, its felt as it there's thousand of blades across my heart.

Have you ever sit down and think what I really ever want?

Lastly Happy valentine to all!

Please don't make it happened to make it a last valentine for us,

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Parts of life

2011-02-07T23:56:00.000+08:00

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!

Long holidays ended just like that, back to work tomorrow!

Ah gong and bf house on day one,
Gambling through out the night with bf, his family and friends,
We win 80 over bucks!

Malaysia on day two, bf on duty.

Day three, back to Singapore at night,

Day four, nan Xiang restaurant at city square mall with bf and his cliques(Sharon Jie and Anthony)

Day five, sleep and sleep.
Thats my CNY

Here comes my r/s issues again,

One.
I'm always feeling that insecure whenever I'm alone,
Thinking that I'm fat and no as well, pretty and good like 'someone else'

Two.
I have this issues that I wanna talk to bf eagerly because it really affects me but I don't know how
To start, it's an sensitive issues.

Three.
I always find that I'm not a understanding gf,
I'm practicing how to be a good one though(:

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Fat!

2011-01-31T23:50:00.001+08:00

Wtffffffffff

I gained back to my fucking weight!

Help!
I think should really go London weight soon

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Please be over soon

2011-01-28T09:52:00.001+08:00

Dear God, please let everything be smooth for bf.
I'm willing to exchange my spine with his, this selection is important for him. He have been selected but because of annular tear, he might have to give up.

I will do anything, I'm promised.
Please let him pass his report.

I beg you,
For the sake of my love.

Thank you.

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Happy like a pigggg

2011-01-23T15:55:00.001+08:00

I'm so happy!

I'm getting my bag later on,

Thanks bb!

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记的

2011-01-20T23:53:00.003+08:00

不去想，不去管，
只要你心里还有我。

放弃不在我们的字典里，

但你究仅是慢慢的习惯我还是还有一丝了爱呢？

我记的我给你承诺，
我不回让你孤单一辈子的，

但你还记的你的吗？

Worn out,

2011-01-20T07:34:00.001+08:00

In need of money,

Please let me have a few billions,

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we have to fall before we know it actually hurts

2011-01-18T07:40:00.001+08:00

現苦，後甜

王振真

2011-01-17T14:54:00.001+08:00

我的宝贝，宝贝给你一点甜甜
让你今夜都好眠.

w/o you

2011-01-15T22:44:00.001+08:00

Bf went to Zirca to celebrate Jeremy's birthday, I'm at his house with peanut, sharon Jie and his mummy.I need to have trust in him.But zirca have many chio bu-s lehhhhhHow to have trust?!):This is why I hate clubbing,

life is still wonderful

2011-01-11T23:08:00.001+08:00

2nd week of 2011,Down with cough and sore throat,Bf came to surprise me during his night out to visit me!So happyyyyy!I miss baby LOH too,When can we go on a double date trip eh?I'm craving for morracon tea nowwwww Please take off on one of Saturday, if not work on Friday morning.I wanna go on a trip so badly mannnnnHope this year is a good year for me and everybody yoh!

Happy birthday to Lenny!

2011-01-03T21:29:00.002+08:00

it's the 3rd day of Year 2011!

a brand new year yohhhh!
so many days to forward,

Happy Birthday Bo Jinnnnnnnn.
love you as long as we are together.

to Babby Loh
Photos will be uploaded by this week

Bf's celebration was a sucess,
he was definitely enjoying to himself,

thanks alicia and ah thet for coming,
thanks everyone for presents,(behalf on zhen zhen)

time passed so fast,
bf's one week block leave ended today, on his birthday.

i misses him now though we just seen each other one hour ago,

2011's Resolutions:
-Slim back to my 54kg,
-Save up for my Private Diploma,
-Bkk trip with bf(tickets booked)
-More $ in my account,
-Get rid of my sensitiveness
-Trust zhenzhen wholeheartedly,
-Unforgettable 21st birthday celebration!

so far, i could only think till here.

will add more when i came across it.

he will never find this place of mine,

2010-12-29T14:31:00.001+08:00

you doesnt seemed to cherish me anymore,

you lied to me again.

想回到过去

27th Dec

2010-12-27T01:15:00.003+08:00

why do all weekends come to an end?

first of all,

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

it's 1.15am and im still wide awake sufing net and disturbing bf,
despite i have work tml at 8am!

bf is having his birthday celebration next week,
that means he left only one week of block leave!

sorry BFF.A for neglecting you,
i always cant meet you when you wanted to,
i still miss your craps!

works have benn great,
just that it can be seriously boring when there's nothing to do,
saving up money is a sore,
but im a little step more towards my opriv diploma,
i cant wait to get my diploma soon.

2 more days to our 7 months,
are you looking forward to it, baby?

i just couldnt get hold of my luck

2010-12-20T00:01:00.002+08:00

5 more days to christmas,

bf and i got presents for sharon jie and anthony already!
i bought something for my stingy mum as well.

today was a lucky day for bf but disaster for me!

i dreamt of someone who keep telling me that blk 109 is haunted on friday night,
so i bought 1090 Roll on saturday, and it came out 0199
nevermind.

Sunday, we went to best denki with sharon jie and anthony ,
you know Jeremy Ratnam from 91.3?
yeah he was the host for that day and if you were to be selected by him and answer a question you will get $50 best denki voucher!
as a typical singaporean, we tried many ways to caught his attention and finally,
bf caught his attention!

we were told to count the 91.3fm stickers in the 2 doors refrigerator,
the other contestant guessed 91
bf guessed 70!
the answer was 70!!
bf won!
even Jeremy was surprised by his accurate answer and he gave us $150 voucher!

but i forgot to buy my 1090 and it came up in consolation prize,
sis even texted me at 5.20pm to ask me whether i wanna buy it,
but i was too tired to reply her text.
my tiredness caused my 250$ flew away.
DAMN
i was whining non stop.
im so sad.

it's monday tomorrow,
i hate it.

Who doesnt love new clothes?

2010-12-08T15:32:00.001+08:00

CHECK IT OUT AT ClothesAffair Byleejinwang

Mentioned my name and you will get 10% off. Free meet up to those who stay in amk area!

2010-12-05T21:05:00.002+08:00

i have been getting lazier and lazier to do so many things,
dieting, blogging, and waking up going to work.

i slept 16 hours on friday!

Congrats bf for passing his IPPT in his selection,
you are a step ahead to your goal!

haven been staying over at bf house since thursday and finally im back home on sunday
kinda guilty because i left mother alone at home.

im so glad that finally i saw something in my bank,
hope im been able to see 5k at the end of september next year,
i know it may be little but every little single savings counts,

im praying hard that bf passhis 5 days training at pasir ris camp,
jia you! im waiting for your good news

half a year

2010-11-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

we have been together for 180 days,
4320 hours, 259200 mins, 15552000 seconds

HAPPY SIXTH MONTH ANNIVERSARY!

ilovedieu

Trim fats

2010-11-27T00:36:00.000+08:00

I just couldn't stop eating!
I started to get hungry at 3 plus Whenever I have my plain Yong tau foo at 11.30,
Last time I used to have no foods for 6-8 hours, I think my gastric is acting up again.
Many doctors said I have weak stomac because of the irregular meals,

Bf is getting fitter whereas I'm getting FATTER!
I can't let him lighter than me!
GOSH!

I wanna be my 54kg again.

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Wonderful

2010-11-22T00:20:00.000+08:00

Why am I always being so sensitive?
I knew almost everything but I just couldn't bring myself to stop thinking.

CWL be positive!
GO GO GO!

Went kevion's birthday celebration on Saturday,
He know how to say "mum mum" already,
He clapped and laughed when you sang happy birthday song to him,
He know how to "pray pray" already,
Time passed so fast,
Last year of today, kevion is still in Xiao ting's stomach,
I'm still stuck in that beast r/s, patching and breaking up with that ass,

Now, kevion is one year old,
Me and bf gonna be together for 6 months,
Me and alicia's friendship are gonna be a year though we are friends in secondary but we don't talked to each other,
Me and Xiao ting are getting into 16 years friendship,
After being through so much and forth,
I realised life is always wonderful.

Tough time don't lasts but tough man do.

I'm happy leading my life, just that I'm being over sensitive sometimes,
But I know deep down in my heart, me and bf are deeply in love.(:

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2010-11-15T23:52:00.001+08:00

Thanks for being there whenever i needed you guys,

life have been great,

sometimes i dont know what i really wanted,
sometimes i thought i was strong but a tiny lizard will scared the wit out of me and make me cried like mad.

i thought im over it
but it's still lingered somewhere in my mind,

i'm 20 but i still think like a kid.
i still cant get over everything,

i just want you to know
Just because i smile doesnt mean im happy

我在这里计算终点的距离,
下一站,有没有更期待的结局.
眼,闭上眼,看不看的见过去.
看不看的见原来那个你和幸福的关系

regardless you read my blog anot, i dont give a damn any more.

Happy birthday to all nov babies!

2010-11-07T15:08:00.000+08:00

Thanks Alicia and Ah Thet for the surprise and prezzie!

Thanks god for letting baobei to have night out on my birthday to have dinner with me!

Thanks people for all the wishes!

I love every each of you!
Thanks for appearing in my life!

Photos will be uploaded soon!
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fifth month

2010-10-31T22:36:00.003+08:00

Happy Fifth month baobei!

thanks for being there when ever i need you.

YOU are my best birthday present for my 20th birthday.

i lub yew deep deep xoxox

P/S im sorry to disappointed you over and over again
i promised i will changed for the better.

Missy Loh, i miss you too and thanks for being a great friend all along!

push myself harder

2010-10-11T19:16:00.007+08:00

i happened to browse through the web and i found this flower!
HYGRANGEAS - my new loves.

GOALS

i definitely bring you guys home by some day!
time to pamper myself a lil.

-Save money for diploma
-Bkk Trip with Monster Z
-Own a Car

You

2010-10-06T22:02:00.000+08:00

Time passed so fast!
Monster is coming back in 10 days time!
I miss him like mad.

Yes I cut my hair again
I bet baby will like it
Sometimes, I was thinking where did I find the courage to chopped off my waist length hair to this kind of shortness.
POWER of love!

It been a week that I started my new job
Everything was find
All were friendly just that some security so gl.

You can't fixed mistakes. Once people are dead, you can't make them undead.

It made us quarrelled and also prove that we really love each other
Thanks for giving in to me,
You're everything I ever wish for.

Thanks baby,
Xoxo
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What's wrong?

2010-10-01T21:31:00.001+08:00

Whenever I found out that pasts,
It haunts me several days.

and i will be doubting it and find it unsecured
I doubt everythings,
I shouldn't be concerned about it and move on
But I don't know how,
I'm always that sensitive

What's wrong with me?

You sure I'm the last?

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Wang Bo Jin

2010-09-29T20:32:00.000+08:00

Happy four monthsary baby!

I miss you berry berry much!

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Misses you

2010-09-28T22:26:00.000+08:00

Happy 4 months anniversary!

But you are in Australia and I can only see you 19 days later

27th september
Sent baby to airport with Sharon Jie and went to anson road to sign my contract with tbc
Met up with candy and Shian for that lil while to chill
Accompanied Alicia and ah thet to collect car
Drove peanut out, went loyang to pray.

28th September
Went to sign contract with ceva and I'm officially working for them starting tomorrow!
Catch Wall Street; money never sleeps with Alicia and fat boys for dinner!
Bo Jin called me twice today!
I cried while talking to him(shh)
I simply miss him too much.

How I wish time pass faster and baby is back to my side.

Bo Jin! Jia you!

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#15

2010-09-21T15:48:00.003+08:00

Monster Z is leaving for wallaby in 6 days' time.
We haven even have a good times dating together!
His block leave aint like a block leave,

Saturday
We went out with alicia, ah thet and yong quan to bedok bcm,

Sunday
Company's Chalet

Monday
Baby having Army Cohesion ,
Mandai to pray papa
Fetched his siter and jie fu from airport

Tuesday
Baby going back to camp

Wednesday
Baby having family potrait taking with his family,
i have a interview at changi south

Thursday
Photo taking of his sister's blogshop

Fri, Sat and Sunday
im working for F1

Monday
BABY IS FLYING OFF!

how to have good times with him?
im so sad.

Bored

2010-09-12T16:30:00.000+08:00

Times flies when we are having fine,
Time crawl when we are working

Monster Z leaving for wallaby in 2 weeks time for 3 weeks.
I'm gonna work like mad to earn many many money.
I regretted not saving up when I started working
If not I will he seeing many k in my savings account.

I wanna get a bike license too!
I wanna ride on a hot red Vespa!

- Cwl blogging through iPhone and thinking of you at the same time.

Location:Clarke quay, the Central

how to be skinny fit.

2010-09-08T01:28:00.003+08:00

the chioest period of time.
and skinner.
i miss my long hair!!!!

ROARRRRRRRR

#14

2010-09-06T14:08:00.004+08:00

i saw dust on my blog now,

was freaking lazy to update,

SCHOOL
and you know what,
i was debarred from exam.
Mrs tan was a bitch,
stop giving bullshits like "i didnt sent it, it was the computer that recorded sent it!"

i wasnt skipping school recent except for today(hehe)

second warning latter dated 07 july and 3rd letter dated on 26 july,
i remembered absolutely clearly that i went for every single lesson during this period of time despie im late and why does my accounting is 83%>?

BISHAN is such an ass school.

anyway im gonna quit school and take up a part time dip and full time job at the same time!
i know it's tiring but no choice, for the sake of OUR future.

BOYFREIND
Zmonster is really a great bf,
he fed me well, treat me well, dote me well,
he does everything well for me,
i just cant bear to see him leaving me to wallaby for 3 weeks.
im sure gonna miss him like mad.

FRIENDS
sorry friends, if i neglected you,
i have been accompanying bf because he flying off on 26 September and i can only see him on weekends.
i have work on weekdays.
promise to meet up with anyone during the holidays, alright?

i lost 1 kg! and it like finallyyyyyy,
im so gonna get myself the meal replacement shake to replace one of my meals.

54kg here i come!

DRIVING
my driving sucks like hell,
i think i drove better wgeb i didnt get my license yet.
Z monster was like "hello, baby, you got your license already leh, why like that?"
"you should know how bad you drove just now right?"

i dont know why man! i just felt so nervous when babyZ is beside me,
i just couldnt park my vehicle well.
baby and friends are giving my instructions whenever i park the car.
so embarrassing.

LIFE
life have been great.
you can see it when you see my size.
grewing fatter,
i miss my ife in simei ite so so much,
always filled with laughter,
slacking at cafe one,

now everybody has their own life,
candy is working,
hui shian is busily taking care of bb jayden and working part time,
yu wei, alex, alvin, derek, jordan all in army,
emily is studying,
alicia is attending patient,
jennifer taking care of bb kevion etc etc

how i wished time turned back at the age of 17,
and just stopped there.
problems and more troubles add in when we grow older,
that's life,

CHEERS.

Forgotten memories,

2010-08-30T00:50:00.001+08:00

Happy 3 months Z Monster!

Thanks for not giving up on me despite I grew 2kg ever since with you.

I have not been updating because i'm super lazyyy.

Thursday;
I have a good time with Wenqi, Jasmine, Pek Fan and Cy @ Kbox
8$ from 12-6am,
It been a time I sang though I have teribble voice.
Friday;
baby Z booked out early and came to my house for dinner!
Saturday;
Went out with baby Z, his sis and Anthony to celebrate Antho's birthday @ waraku!.
Grape vine western for dinner,
Pizza at sis's friend house,
Grew fatter for sure.
Sunday;
Slept, woke up and proceed to jiefu house to pai pai.
Eat again. This time round I bought peanut along!
Fifi is chasing peanut everywhere she go.

School is starting in 6 hours time and I feel fucking moody.
Nbxzxzz

2010-08-26T17:01:00.000+08:00

I really grew fatter!
From 54 to 56 and now 58kg!
Fuck, all thanks to that monster
who have been feeding me.

I'm sorry for what I have done,
I'm selfish,
My heart don't have you totally,
I know you cherished me,
You willing to held my hands but I chose to give up

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Communication breakdown

2010-08-23T03:07:00.000+08:00

I find myself having difficulties to speak to you,
and it's getting worst.

I just hate it.seriously

I washing my hands off you.

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Doubts

2010-08-21T07:47:00.000+08:00

The truth or just moments of truth?

Problem lies with me.

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Location:Ang Mo Kio Street 21,,Singapore

Fickle minded

2010-08-19T02:30:00.000+08:00

Come on CWL,

You have your Zhen.

One more day to see baby Z.

Comtemplating the meaning of love.

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Insomnia

2010-08-17T08:36:00.000+08:00

Why am I waking up at 6.45 despite I slept at 2.30 last night?

P/s I felt so fat.

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Location:Shunfu Rd,,Singapore

Day One; w/o any calls or texts from you.

2010-08-16T16:12:00.003+08:00

Today is not my day!
i went to amk library to return and renew books as well,
and the person told me that Baby got to be there.
so she told me to go back online to renew.
i realised that i dont have baby's username and password so i called the nlb.
so i happily do the renewal and i realised the books expired on the 15th!

nb, i have to go down nlb again to return the books and waited for them to put back on shelves and borrow them again.
and i have to waited for freaking 1-2 hours.

im gonna carry those 2 heavy books home again.

):

stomach cramps hurts.
first 2 days were worst.
clogged.

I´m lucky just to linger in your life

2010-08-16T00:59:00.004+08:00

You make me smile like the sun

I'm not a reckless driver.

2010-08-11T23:37:00.000+08:00

I drove today!
officially on the road w/o the help of anybody,
yu wei drove his dad's car to school
to fetch me but he got to return his dad at four, so he rented a car.
so I drove his dad car and he drove the rented car and I follow his car to his dad's office!
my first official drive on road!
I'm so so nervous,

finally I got my rings!
cute max. thanks cy.

if I were to leave for good, who will really miss me?

diet plans which always failed

2010-08-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

Diet starts todayyyy!
i ran one round of my house estate,
u didn't see wrongly,
YES I ran!

that it!

true heart love,

2010-08-09T09:00:00.000+08:00

I hope this time I'm blessed with all your real love,

I'm still not able to contribute that 30%
I think I really needs more time than ever.
no matter how hard I force myself not to bother,
it failed somehow.

MR. CHUA

2010-08-05T15:14:00.002+08:00

ever since papa passed away,
i dont feel any love from this family.

the picture of dad with pipes all over on his body and the scene he died still haunts me.
the day i kissed him the last goodbye,
the day i held his icy cold hand,
the day when i called him PAPA and he didnt respond,
i know that the day he will leave us forever.

somehow, i wished papa is here for me.
everything wont be the same if papa is still around.

when everybody is talking about their father,
my heart is bleeding.

my last words with papa is one week before he died.
i wished i could shortened my life by half or even my life to revive my dad.

i didnt talks or speaks about papa is not because i dont misses him,
is because i miss him too much,

me and you never talks,
we talks about money and that all.

what i do is never enough for you,

WHAT SHOULD I DO TO SATISFY YOU?

im your daughter,
cant you be more respectful towards me?

i handed my heart to you,

2010-08-05T01:12:00.001+08:00

it's yours now,

BYE BYE CDC.

2010-08-02T23:24:00.000+08:00

本小姐今天升级成为驾车一族！

no more striking kerb at crank course and parallel parking,
no more failed to perform safety
no more being horned by other drivers while learning on road,

im proud to say
IM OFFICIALLY A DRIVER NOW!

CHUA SEE PENG, I LIKE!

but still,
i love BABY Z more.

thank for the everything that you have done for me.
XOXOXOXOXOXOO

happyy birdayy

2010-08-01T07:30:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, CANDY JIEEEE!
I'm gonna see you in few hours' time,
with simei friends,
I'm so looking forward to it,

#13

2010-07-31T19:06:00.001+08:00

Sis said i grew fatter,
all thanks to the supper,

i wanna slim down!

GIVE ME THE DETERMINATION PLEASE

two monthsary

2010-07-29T07:44:00.000+08:00

Happy TWO months, monster!

time passed so fast, and we are together for 2 months.

you are the best I ever get.
I love you.

filled with love

2010-07-28T01:12:00.001+08:00

baby z always surprised me with surprises,

baby Z is my monster!(:

everyone have their own difficulties,

2010-07-26T23:49:00.000+08:00

i find it very hard to maintain the ways I want.

im tired,
i thought I'm always the best,
the facts is I am not.

sometimes, I do hate myself seriously.

I'm not that good as you think.

i couldn't find any reasons not to fall for you.

2010-07-23T01:06:00.003+08:00

I couldn't help loving him. Just loving him.
No fierce desires or passion had taken hold of me.
It wasn't like that.
I was happy just to look at him.

3 inches gone.

2010-07-21T16:06:00.004+08:00

i have my new hair cut today.
i felt so brave.

it been so long i have short hair.
i have been wanting to grow it long when i was in secondary 2.
but when i have long hair, i wanted it short.

humans are always that contradicting uh.

#12

2010-07-20T14:33:00.003+08:00

i'm selected to work for the F1 race.

money money money money in my pockets!

谈钱真的伤感情.
家家有本难念的经。

my tp is coming soon,
this is the third time.

if i failed,
i shall take a break from taking license .
i seriously sucks.

my mind is filled with you,

2010-07-17T10:48:00.000+08:00

I'm alone at bb's house and it feels so weird,
I just seen bf last 4 hours ago and I missing him already,

FRIENDS

2010-07-15T16:47:00.003+08:00

i dont want 'the spending lesser time with me' to affect our 15 years friendship.

I DONT WANT TO.

friends, if i neglected you or so,
and you feel that im using you,
actually i'm not.

i just couldnt balance friends and relationships well,

i just want to let you all know,
i do cares FOR all of you.

it very difficult to maintain this 15 years friendship,
we have lots of up and down,
we have alot of first time together,

we are once that very close friends.

i dont want to lose you.

#11

2010-07-11T22:48:00.002+08:00

when i was 17 years old in SIMEI ITE.

somehow, i missed the life when i was young.
i dont have to worry about anything,
i was busying playing and working everyday,
earning enough just for my spending.
when i grow up, i have to pay for everything i spent.

how i wished time would stop.

together with baby Z is blissful,
im happy that we are getting closer, im taking steps by steps to tell you my problems,
im happy that you bear with my careless and my nonsenses,
most importantly, im happy to have you!(:

Love is a decision not an emotion or feeling,
that if made from the heart will outlast anything

friend like you is not needed,

2010-07-08T15:22:00.003+08:00

Seriously, i dont need a friend like you anymore.

i wondered who is the one who talks about cherishing the friendship when i was with kh?
i wondered who is the one who say that i treated you as meaningless friend?
NA BEI

now, all applied to you.

what is the definition of the atmosphere will be weird if weiling is here?
FUCK.

is that a big fuck that you have a gf?

im always kick out from your friend list when you have a gf.

i tried my best to savour this friendship when i told you im together with zz,
but how's your reaction?
so not gentleman.

i still remembered when you are with kelly,
i even have to ask for ur permission to add you in facebook,
and my reply from you was "i think better not ,to avoid misunderstanding"

when you broke up with her, you sent me a email and asking how's my life.
seriously what the fuck.

i shouldnt savour this friendship at the point of time when i asked you not to text me anymore if i know this will happens.

NOW IT YOU WHO START THE BALL ROLLING, DUDE.

ah, forget it.

thanks for inviting all the friends except me.
_l_

BOTH OF US SAMA SAMA,
so dont give me a fuck of telling and comparing who is in the right or wrong.

#10

2010-07-07T23:06:00.001+08:00

seriously i have a round face.
FUCKING SMALL EYES.
BUT SOMEONE LIKE MY DIMPLE HUH(:.

my weight haven been decreasing since feb.

i have so many home works left undone.
please, give me the determination to finish all the Accounting

today is so not my day!
FUCK TODAY.

On the other hand, i found my Pri school graduation Power point slide.
HAH!

#9

2010-07-07T02:17:00.002+08:00

i felt so tired even though im not the one driving,
toured around singapore today because all of us are idiots in sense of directions.
even with the help of GPS.

Changi Airport, Ice kimo, Queensway shopping centre, China town, Turf City, Bugis and Dim Sum at Wen Dao Shi @ geylang.
BAGUS MAN!

WANG ZHEN ZHEN, when are you going to bring me to eat supper again?

ALRIGHT

2010-07-06T03:01:00.001+08:00

I will be fine,

哭过就好了

2010-07-05T08:47:00.003+08:00

I realized every single post related to my r/s,
I shall give it a break and blog something else!

currently I'm waiting to fall asleep
blogging through iPhone save a hassle from mAking myself to on the com and wait for it to load, key in my password,
click on firefox, type in blogger address, log in and start blogging my shit in this little space of mine.

I think I'm having STM because I make 2 trip from mrt to home to take my things,
I hate school and find myslf seriously wasting my time in higher nitec.
I should have take up a private diploma course,
but where can I find the money?

I miss my simei life Where there is no troubles at all.
I miss the days when we sat at cafe one eating our breakfast set looking out at Barney and hunks.

When we are young, we wish to grow up,
when we are all grown up, we wish time reversed again,
this is how human contradicts themselves.

This is life.

you are the best now, what else do i still yearned for?

2010-07-04T22:25:00.003+08:00

sometimes, im just contradicting myself.
when i told myself i dont want to know, im actually dying to know it seriously.
when i get to know what is it, im afraid i cant accept the facts.

i can only pretend im okay, im alright
because i dont want my insecurity and insensitivity to ruin our beautiful moments.

im sorry for not sharing my problems
the problem is i dont know HOW to.
because,
im afraid the history will repeats.

you are the best now, i dont know what else am i still expecting for?

2010-07-03T03:21:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, i do hate myself seriously

The problem lies within me,

I'm sorry,
I love you and I really do.

fickle minded

2010-07-01T04:30:00.003+08:00

i think im a genius,

i can find anything that i wanna find it.
and then, it upsets me again.

im such a fickle-minded person
i think i have bi-polar
because im upset and feels okay now and then,

problem is HOW.

rehdnauoyfostasplilelgnisyrevewnoki

#8

2010-06-30T14:42:00.007+08:00

MOROCCAN TEA DATES

it's on the FRIDAY

Alicia and Ah Thet

i looked fuggly,

We loved the PITAS BREAD

Beef Kebab which took 45 mins to arrive

i felt so loved whenever you are around(:

HOLIDAYS IS ENDING. roars!
my cmb project is still left with 100% undone.

i have a enjoyable holidays though,
i was working throughout the first week of holidays,
went on DOUBLE DATES with Bff.A and Ah Thet to Moroccan Tea for Arabian foods,
Class chalet on the last week.

Baby Z clicks well with my friends,
I like i like,

Class chalet was really fun,
despite i only have 2 hours' sleep.
i have enjoyable night with my classmates especially with Yu Hang,
we chat through out the night, sitting outside the chalet talking craps,

photos will be uploaded soon.

First Month

2010-06-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

we are just together for a month but i felt so long with you,

HAPPY FIRST MONTH ANNIVERSARY ♥

#7

2010-06-23T20:30:00.004+08:00

i do love gatherings,
dont you?

it been so long i catch up with CBTL peoples,
i went to Annie's son birthday celebration on Monday and i really do enjoyed my time there chilling out talking about the old stuffs we did in CBTL
Aishah still remembered my favourite quotes, my favourite foods,
Khairi still love disturbing me,
Ting Wei is still that quiet,
Lidia and i still click that well,
Annie and Garry still as cheeky ever,

I SIMPLY LOVE THIS BOY OF MINE(:

Baby Z was supposed to have on off 22nd and 23rd so i specially took off on that day to accompany him but he told me he have duty on the 22nd so he can only book out on thur night?and i have work on friday!

everything planned well and i was really disappointed,

i was specially touched when i see YOU at the chalet,
but i ruined it.
because you caught me smokING
everything was so coincidentally,
you showed up when i just lighted up the cig and took a puff,
and DANG DANG. you were there standing infront of me.

i was shocked to the maxzzzz!
you said hello to my friend and told me you are going for a walk,
and texted me saying that i looked scared.
i was really scared because i told you i stopped,
best thing was, you didnt blamed me,

i felt guilty,
because you treated me so well and i bluffed you thrice when we are less than a month.

seriously, you made me felt so loved because i simply swear that you are the first ever bf who surprised me with such sudden attack without any complaints from taking train from Yew tee to Pasir Ris.
you told me you hated trains and bus because you are used to travel on bike,
you didnt make any complaints and accompany me throughout the night to chat with my ex colleagues though i can see you are tired.
you specially come and fetched me in the morning to eat breakfast,
you specially do all the sweetest things to me that my ex-es didnt did any to me before,
BEST: you told me you dont mind to meet my friends and making friend with them!
you fulfilled the wishes that i want my "bf" do to me.

i'm so glad i really found you.
all the things you do,
make me cling on to you even more.

broken heart,

2010-06-22T14:39:00.003+08:00

how do you mend a broken heart?

blame myself for being a nuisance and busybody,
my heart hurts a lil seriously,

that kind of feelings is back again.

if you treated me as friend
dont ask me what happened, please.

what can i do to have that courage to voice out my doubts to YOU?

#6

2010-06-21T01:07:00.002+08:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY.

dad, can you hear me?

DADDY, can you please visit me in my dream?
so that i can tell you

I MISS YOU ?