imaginary affairs

i watched TWILIGHT with LOVES today.
suddenly, i have the urged of having a vampire boyfriend.
though i might have the chances to be one of his meals one day,
but i believed he wont hurt me more.

overall, it's still a nice movie.

alrights.....
something to comment and to post out my thoughts,
*clear throat*
i wondered how long will i get rid of this *imaginary* love-triangle affairs.
i always think that LOVES will go back to wl.
just for information. his ex has the same name and birthday as me but she is 2 years older.

she behaved somehow like zy.
as in her belief in relationships.
she always thought of LOVES will return to her just like how zy think i will go back to him.
is it a retribution?

zy waited me for two years and he gave up this year.
during this period, zy will tagged in my blog as annoymous or someone to cheer me up,
or he will said hello to me in msn.
now, LOVES did the same things.
not tagging in wl's blog.
but buy her presents and sometimes messaged her.
i'm not trying to emphasie who did the more biggest mistakes.
i hated him for lying to me.
buying her a present and letting me know, i'm okay.
but buying her a presents without telling me, it's a big NO NO.
because since he kow i will be angry without letting me know.
what for he still buys and let me angry?
who is more important?
alrights. just venting out.
i promised LOVES not to mention anymore.

but i just cant bring myself to trust him.
just like today, LOVES and his brother had a small tiff.
his brother sent a message reading."if you dont pick up my call, i will tell weiling that you meet wl before"
i choose to believe his brother instead although i told LOVES i believed him.

you know, once the scar is there, is forver there.

we almost quarelled everyday because of this imaginary love-triangle.
i did the most stupid things that LOVES hated.

i need times to digest all this stuffs.