memories

everyone has memories,
memories that is always the past,
past is a part of reality,
reality is always hurting,
i can have memories,
but i will never stayed in that memories,

when i dont feel sad nor anything,
it is prove that i grew up to be more mature,

tell me,when is the day?

yesterday you are here,
now you are gone,
because i choose to let go.



of you and our memories,
lies and reality are the most hurting shit the world.

you lies, i cant accept,
we over,
that it.

naive

now i realised,
what is real may not be the real,
it takes a period of time to build our the love in between
but it just take a second to terminate it,

i'm just being naive sometime,

love meet what?

yes, i'm blogging now.
i have work at 11 am later,
my baby is sleeping at his home now,

i'm surfing, blogging, facebook-ing, gaming,
surprisingly, winston kuan texted me today,
it just oh-so-sudden,
hahahaha

i have been eating ba zhang this two days,
i think i grew more fats,
but mummy said i slimmed down
not until very skinny still abit chubby
all thanks to ..............!

when love meets heart and when heart meets soul and when soul meets heart and when heart meets love,..

叶子

finally,
after so much uninstalling, repairing, swearing, cursing, fucking the modem
it's almost done.
at least can watch my 花样男子

i went party world which is located at shenton way on monday with Evin and my sister,May.
she came over to Clarke quay to find Evin and she treated us dinner.
i went to find them after my work.
there's a thai disco beside party world and i saw many booooooooobbbbbbbbbbbssssss & chiooooooooooosssss buuuuuuuuuuuuusssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wondered how can they be so beautiful,
i feel like squeezing their neh nehs because it super huge,
no wonder so many guys are there la,
they even stood outside the girls toilet to PEEK A BOO at BOOBIES
of course is not mine,
mine cant compared with them,
is like comparing with orange with watermelon.
*LAUGHS*

and i came accross this song which Evin sang, 叶子
very very nice.
(:

叶子是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀是落在天上的叶子
天堂原来应该不是妄想
只是我早已经遗忘当初怎么开始飞翔

孤单是一个人的狂欢
狂欢是一群人的孤单
爱情原来的开始是陪伴
但我也渐渐地遗忘当时是怎样有人陪伴

我一个人吃饭旅行到处走走停停
也一个人看书写信自己对话谈心
只是心又飘到了哪里就连自己看也看不清
我想我不仅仅是失去你

叶子是不会飞翔的翅膀
翅膀是落在天上的叶子

尊严

一个女孩子不怕男孩子，那男孩子就没有尊严了吗？

尊严重要还是我们的爱重要？

flu

FLU + BLOCKED NOSE
SWINE FLU.

daddy

i really dont know how to understand and get to know a person,

i wondered what if every person is perfect.

yesterday was my dad one year death anniversary,
all the family didnt sleep for the previous night because we were preparing the ceremony throughout,
we played mahjong after finishing folding the incense papers
and finally, i realised happiness comes from gathering,
baby swine(: imitated my mother's action whenever my mum throw the wrong tile or lose,
my two sisters even ah kia liao with him,
mummy treated us macdonald breakfast,
we are all laughing and playing throughout the night,
the ceremony is meant to be a happy one because we are doing something good to dad.

somehow, i miss daddy so much,
sometimes, i wish daddy was with us during the gathering,
he would take the initative to make us laugh,
probably he would even disturb baby swine(:

bay swine(: only sees him once,
the most regretful thing is baby swine(: cant call him uncle anymore,
daddy cant play with his grandchild,
i cant get daddy's scolding whenever i quarrelled with him,
i missed the 50 bucks he gave me,

it's been a year that i sit on the motorbike,
when can i have the chance to ask my dad to stopl playing while driving?

i always love mr.chua

laptop

i want a vaio lappy!!!!!!!!!!
i almost pyscho mummy to buy me one if i studied private course successfully,

but mummy said it's a confirm,guarantee plus chop that she will buy one for me if i get into poly,
damn, why am i so stupid?

VAIO CS series or NS series?

those that caught my eyes are freaking expensive. $2199-$2499

i want a lappy
i want a lappy
i want a lappy
i want a lappy
i want a lappy
i want a lappy
i want a lappy
i want a lappy
i want a lappy
i want a lappy
i want a lappy
i want a lappy
i want a lappy
i want a lappy
i want a lappy

money very lil small

now i realised money is really that lil small.=.=

today i'm a financial accountant,
asking around how many zeros million have?
how much is blah blahs blah.
i returned all my maths to my secondary teacher.
LOL.

if i save $200 per month
when i get to 6o, i only have 96k
not even enough to get myself a flat,

and if i want to marry on 25,
baby swine(: and me got to save $450 each in order to have 50 plus k

i dont wish to be as grand as my sister which her wedding held at Marina Mandarin
which is $1150 per table.
her whole wedding include her honey moon caused her nearly to 70-80k

how am i going to have my 1 million when i'm reached 60?

why isnt million a 5 zeros?

baby swine is a pig,
pig is baby swine(:

07052009

SHEESA, K-BOX, ANYONE?

actually, eventually, supposed to meet pek fan, wenqi and jasmine for k box session today,
but, it was still cancelled in the end.
wenqi and jasmine went MIA):

LOL!

i realised i still have two kin sisters who are always there for me.
i love them to the max.
liked today, may(2nd sis) said she wanted to fetch me from toa payoh and bring me out for dinner !
though it's not a big deal
but she was at home, hougang,
you know, she seldom do this, from hougang to toa payoh,
she loves foods and her dinner/lunch/breakfast is always very sumptuous.
but i rejected her in the end.

work work work,

either one

if either one is my boyf......................

555

yes, i'm so guilty,
i spent $35.20 on 2 O.P.I nail polish and a nail remover.

O.P.I nail polish is the best i can say,
the colour, brush everything is so so damn nice.

i'm trying to save 200 per month so that i have 1 million dollars when i turned 60.

so many things to list,
i have so many many wishes,


i wanna go swimming,
i wanna be a man,
i wanna be that lil happy girl again.

memories of you is always there.
that the truth.

i need a break from you,

i'm tired and i need a break.