failure

i think blogger is fucked up.
because i cant post any photos,

many things happened
i realised our r/s is not that strong although we have been together for 18 months,
happiness in us is fading, in fat there isnt anymore left,

am i controlling you too much?
i'm tired of suspecting you, quarrelling and stuffs,

i think i should really give you the freedom of making girl-friends and talk to your "good friend", ex-es


my time will never be for you only anymore,

sometimes, i asked myself when can i really picked up the courage to trust you again,
i think this is a very difficult task for me to accomplish it.


i always think i can handle r/s well,
but after that incident, i think i totally a failure,

i really really do hate myself for knowing you.
because

your words always dont match the message.