I WANT THE FACTS

why do we talk only about money?

MONEY MONEY MONEY IS ALL YOU WANT?

THEN WHAT FOR YOU GAVE BIRTH TO ME?
RATHER GAVE BIRTH TO MANY BUNDLES OF MONEY SUA.
NO WONDER YOU WANT ME TO CALL YOU MUMMY
MUMMY MUMMY= MONEY MONEY

TO BE HURTFUL,
THE DAD THAT HE LEFT FOR YOU ARE FOR MY FURTHER STUDIES,
BUT DID I ASK YOU FOR ANY SINGLE CENTS WHEN I WAS TILL STUDYING WHEN DAD LEFT US?
NO I DIDNT,
I PAY FOR MY OWN POCKET MONEY, BILLS, , SHOPPING EVERYTHING!

NOW BECAUSE I DIDNT GAVE YOU MONTH ALLOWANCE YOU SAID I'M UNFILIAL?
GIVE MONEY= FILIAL?

OK, WHEN YOU ARE OLD, I DUMPED YOU INTO OLD FOLK'S AND GAVE YOU $1000 A MONTH.
I'M FUCKING FILIAL OK?

I DIDNT SEE DAD FOR FUCKING 6 MONTHS BEFORE HE DIED.
I RECEIVED A CALL FROM HIM 2 DAYS BEFORE HE DIED.
THAT ALL.
THE LAST TIME I SEE HIM IS THE DAY HE ADMITTED.
AFTER THAT NO MORE.

HE'S GONE FOREVER,

I WANT DAD.
I WANT HIM .
CAN YOU GIVE HIM BACK TO ME NOT?

I PROMISE I WILL BE BACK HOME EARLY AND I WONT TAKE A SINGLE CENTS FOR YOU ANYMORE.
I WILL BE GOOD, NO MORE ARGUING, BE HOME BY 12
I PROMISED.
DAD COME BACK TO MY SIDE PLEASE.
CAN YOU?
DAD WHERE ARE YOU?
CAN YOU HEAR ME NOT?
YOUR AH BEE IS FINDING FOR YOU.
SHE IS WAITING FOR YOU TO FETCH HER BACK
SHE IS LOST WITHOUT YOU.
I WILL BUY YOU YOUR FAV. FOODS EVERYDAY
I WILL LISTEN TO EVERYTHING YOU WANT ME TO DO

WHERE ARE YOU?!!!!!!!!


WHEN EVERYONE IS BUYING PRESENT FOR FATHER'S DAY OR CELEBRATING THEIR FATHER'S BIRTHDAY,
WHERE AM I?
WHAT AM I DOING?

I M FUCKING FAILURE

THINGS WILL NOT TURN OUT THIS WAY IF HE IS STILL ALIVE.

IT DOESN'T MEAN I NEVER TALK ABOUT HIM MEANS I DONT MISS HIM
IT DOESN'T MEAN I DONT LOVE HIM WHEN I DIDNT SHED A SINGLE TEAR AT HIS FUNERAL
I DO I DO I DO OK?

I MISS HIM THAT WHY I DONT WANT TO TALK ABOUT HIM
DO YOU KNOW I WAS HOLDING MY TEARS WHENEVER PEOPLE ASKED ME WHAT HAPPENED?
DO YOU KNOW I YEARN FOR DAD'S PRESENCE WHENEVER YOU GO MALAYSIA OR I WAS ALONE AT HOME?
WHENEVER HE QUARRELLED WITH YOU, HE WILL BE HOME FOR SURE IF YOU GO MALAYSIA, TO ACCOMPANY ME.
NOW I'M ALL ALONE YOU KNOW?

I REALLY REALLY DO MISS DAD.

MUMMY CAN YOU BE MY MUMMY THAT I KNOW?
CAN YOU BE THE USUAL SELF?
I PLEAD YOU/

WHO CAN GIVE ME BACK MY HAPPY FAMILY?