#236

FRIENDS ARE ALWAYS THE BEST,
thanks Lynn, Mane, Goldie and Liow for accompanying me to the halloween!



YOU KNOW?

HALLOWEEN NIGHT WAS GREAT
though it was a lil cropped up
but overall was marvellous

photos are with mane
shall upload when i received it

regret to say, we took very little photos
because i was freaking scared though i was anxious about the night.

Mane and Liow doesnt seemed to afraid of any ghosts,
Goldie was afraid of Clown
Lynn only got scared when she got scared
while me, i'm afraid of everything!


i was very very timid because
i grabbed Lynn's hand throughout the tram ride
i was screaming and finding people to hide behind them when the ghosts scared me,

there was a part when we are queuing up for tram,
there was a lady ghost who dressed in black holding a black umbrella,
you know the bride in Corpse Bride?
yea, she looked very similar to her just that she is in black.
she was standing right in front of me and staring straight into my eyes,
first, i wasnt afraid because i was aware of her presence
but the harder she stared, the more frightened i am
because Liow keep asking her to scare me,
he even asked her to touch me.
it was fucking embarrassing because all the attention was on me,
the girls queuing infront of me were laughing.
i almost cried because her stared was really scary.
):


anyway, FRIENDS. thanks for the night and sorry if you guys are bored.

#236

FINALLY.

HALLOWEEN NIGHT TOMORROW WITH MY GAMBLER KHAKIS!

i cant wait for it
i cant wait for it
i cant wait for it


and, i'm all alone at home right now.
mummy went to malaysia,
i'm scared.
HOW?

nah, i'm a brave girl.

i'm eating my cup noodles now.

#235

i hate making decision.
seriously,

my life has been stressful,
money, work , r/s

ARGH!


it just a small matter, why did i make it so complicated?

#234

i asked alot of people this questions,
should i **********************************?


my every day's life now are, eat sleep work and work.

5 more days to HALLOWEEN
6 more days to my celebration with ite cliques
8 more days to my birthday
9 more days to my new job.

time is really running out,

#233

i will be starting my new job on the 3rd of nov,
somehow, i dont feel happy
because i have to adapt the new environment again.

seriously,i'm willing to do if timewatch is willing to pay me 1.2k
but they dont want full timers
what to do?

and yes, i know my friends do love me because
I;M GOING TO HALLOWEEN NIGHT NEXT FRIDAY
$24 BUCKS
I SERIOUSLY FUCKING CANT WAIT FOR IT!

and you know what,
i was too kan chiong today when Mr ANG asked me to drive straight through the junction and the car vibrated because the brake was insufficiently pressed(?)
so the car vibrated as if there's earthquake.
my car stalled for 3 times
i'm still not familiarize with the starting and stopping,
but driving is definitely fun!

i know my blog is full of words,
just bear with it.

#232

WHO WANT TO GO TO HALLOWEEN NIGHT AT NIGHT SAFARI?

I YEARNED TO GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
THOUGH i'm scared.

seriously i never been to any Halloween events because i'm a noob,
please friends, if you love me, go with me ok?
35 bucks
but i have friend that might discount from his friend.
so cheap cheap.

come people, let get SCAR-ED by the ghosts!

#231

Adecco(agent) called me on friday to tell me that RBS accepted me,
i'm gonna sign the contract on wed.

yes, 1.5k job.
but i'm still worried,
because i'm studying in april next year and i have to look for part time job again,
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh,

forget it.

i'm so addicted to MAHJONG nowadays,
yes, peoples do call me gambler now,

CWL= Gambler.

perhaps you guys can buy me a MJ set for me for my birthday?
LOL.

seriously, i dont have mood to blog recently.

i'm emo.

#230

i passed my final theory!
WhooOOOOoooooooo

a step nearer to my license,
i swear i'm gonna make full use of my practical and be attentive during the lesson,
i wanna learn all the techniques and skills in the shortest time asap!


i have plans,
many in fact.

i'm gonna study another higher nitec course in april 2010
and scored well for my gpa and get inton poly 2nd year!

which means i MIGHT not be able to take the $1500 job,
i'm gonna stay at timewatch till i get another well-paid part time job.

CWL is need of money money and still money,

#229

yes, i'm still blogging,
i couldn't get to sleep.

because i have tons of problems left unsolved.

i felt pity for A.
because he have much more problems than me.
it make me felt that i cant leave him,
when i see him almost cried yesterday, it made me feel that i'm useless because i cant do anything for him.
he doesnt have a wonderful birthday this year because the only sole breadwinner fell down.
i cant gave him what he want,
he have no birthday cake,
he was all along in hospital accompanying his mother.

many of my friends disapproved this r/s ,
but i still holding on,
but why cant you?
we quarrelled almost everyday,
i'm still not willing to give up, why?
you almost left with other girl and i'm still willing to be by your side,

why am i still holding on?
sometimes i think i'm really deserve all this,
because i gave in too much.
i truly loved and really want to be with you forever.
you make me want to be with you

but ,

where are you when i'm crying myself to sleep when thinking all the problems you gave me?
where are you when i need someone to lean on?

i will try to understand,
i will try to grow up,
i will try to give up,
i know there is a difference between try and must,
all i need is time.

#228

for me, love between us is always that difficult to maintain.

i should prolly stay single for the time being.

someone asked me, dont you think you have a terrible 19 years old' life?
sometimes, i think i really had one,

seeing people with bf who dote and give in to them, i felt envy,
because i never felt this way for the past 21 months.

what to say?
blame myself for finding the wrong guy.

bless CWL, god.

#227

i had my first driving lesson yesterday.

in the first time of my life, I DROVE THE CAR.
in a very very slow speeed.

my heart went thump thump thump when the car moved because i'm afraid thay i will crash into the trees, cars or building or anything that surrounds me.

seriously, i dont know what should i blog already.

i felt that i'm just a fool to fall for you again,
seriously, i cant forget about your pasts,
yes, everything!
call me a petty, paranoid, or what so ever,
this is me.

me me me.

#226

wtf, why can my weight go down to 50kg?
stubborn fats in me.
shit you.

i'm gonna start learning to drive on thur.
but i dont know i can get to continue learning beacause of money issues.
sis dont have extra cash to lend me luh
and my stingy mother of mine,
she dont want to lend me at all.

i wanna find another job,
yes, i do not have savings though i starting working like 2 years back because
all my spending go to A.
i'm not pushing blame on him,
just that i dont balance my money and time well when i have bf.

i swear i'm gonna have a good planning to all my friends and money when i have a bf next time.

why everything happened to be reality?
oh, i'm such a fool

#225

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#224

sorry peoples,
was away to malaysia on the weekends.
sorry to those who are looking for me.

i went for my virgin trip to club on saturday in malayisa
with my whole bunch of relatives.
all kind of ages.

overall was okay because first i dont drink, second i dont dance.
i didnt bring my ic so i went for supper to avoid the officer during spot check.

i think i'm growing fatter because i have been eating non stop during the trop
have my favourite salted-egg crab before coming out,
ONE BIG CRAB to fill my stomach la..........

p/s my mother was drunk and she did quite a number of "stunts"

i have been feeling nauseas this 2 days.

#223

WARNING: LARGE PICTURE CONTENTS

OVERDUE PICTURES: GENTING TRIP
i didnt upload all the photos because i have 100 over .

#222

i told myself, i will never find someone like you again.

but i almost changed my mind when i saw you today.

but you did something which made my decision firm again.

how i wish i have a accident and woke up to find myself forgetting everything about you.
just you.

i know it's hard, but i definitely will.

CWLKH will never exist anymore.

definitely, this will be my last post about you.
goodbye A.