Unpredictable forecast

I have lost 3 beloved relatives in 3 months.

First my first aunt,
Second, my uncle,
Third, my second aunt.

I was told that my second aunt was looking for me during my uncle's funeral.
"Where is ling ling?"
"Why ling ling was not here?"
"Must bring her here often to play"
This is what she told to my sis.

Felt so heartache.

二姨，
当我看到你躺在棺材里，
我知道你不再痛苦了。
你也到另一個世界和大姨表舅會合.
菱菱在这里, 我会永远記得你親切地笑容和深深的酒窩。

Doesnt mean i feel okay when i didn't show.